Monday, September 14, 2015
This week was a pretty rough one! I don’t know why but there have been a ton of things falling thorough for us lately! Like, members we are planning to teach with are just deciding at the last moment that they don’t want to go anymore. Or we have also had an investigator tell us she doesn’t want to be baptized anymore on the day of her interview! Haha. She never even told us, she just told the Zone Leader that was doing her interview that she changed her mind and that she doesn’t feel like following through with baptism. I won’t lie, that makes a week pretty hard for one to comprehend.
Besides those low notes, the week was very basic and empty. We had a small handful of lessons but we had to drop a good majority of the people we have been teaching! It’s always rough doing that because as a missionary all I want is to see those people return to the walkway that Christ showed us but I am only here to guide them back to Him. I can’t force them and I can’t take their agency even though sometimes I really want to try doing both of those things because I know it’s only for their better good!
It almost feels like every time we have to drop teaching somebody I have to take a 50 lb weight and carry it over my shoulders. This week I feel like I have been walking with 450lbs on my shoulders and it’s been rough. I know that there will always be weeks like this in the mission just like there will always be good and bad weeks in everyday life but man sometimes those bad weeks take a lot out of you and make the good weeks hard to recognize. Luckily, I know I am doing all I can do and all that anybody can ask of us is that we work our hardest every day! I will continue working hard and I’m going to try to find a little bit more of me that I can throw into the work alongside everything I have already been giving so that with hope and sacrifice this next week will turn around for the better!
I know that this is the true church and that we are here to spread a message of love and hope. I love God and I love Christ, my Savior and I know that they love me. So at the end of this rough week, I can say with a surety that my Father and my Brother that are in heaven were there with me through it all and that they felt everything that I felt. All of the pain, sorrow, and heartache that I felt, they did too! I know that they want me to have success so I know that they are going to give me the strength I need to turn it all around! I love you all and I want you all to remember that no matter how we feel, whether it is alone or full of a heavy heart then just know God is with you and He knows how you feel. Turn to Him and He will comfort you.
Always,
Elder Jonah McKee
ps. Thanks to all those of you who write me!! It truly helps me to feel the love and support I have behind me always! Also if you feel like writing me a little more than that would be cool too!
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